Friday, January 6, 2012

When Life Gives You Lemons; Use It For Cleaning Solution.

So, it's been a couple days since my last post, I apologize. I've been focusing mainly on studying, and staying out of my room as much as I possibly can. The last few days have been abnormally great. Up until this morning. It's come to my attention that a girl who very nearly ruined my life is coming back to Olympia. I'm sure some of you already know the story. I bought her alcohol, and she didn't handle herself in public. Got arrested, gave them my name and address, and told them I was solely responsible for her. Without my knowing any of this was going on. She dragged me to a rave that night, and ditched me. I was lucky, and ran into somebody I knew rather well while I was there. Made it home safely, and promptly was kicked out.

Keep in mind, it's not as big of a deal as it sounds. This is something from the past, and it's still got a slight hold on my mind, but not anything serious. I was mistreated by someone I saw as my best friend, someone I could talk to about anything and everything. I trusted her, with my own life almost. Then she abused that trust. It was her who started the process of me being able to write people off that screw me over too badly.

On the other hand, it was nobody's fault other than my own. I made a stupid choice, knowing it was stupid, and I dealt with the consequences. Granted, they ended up being nowhere near as horrible as they could have been, I know this. Instead of spending some time in jail, I had to sacrifice another dear friend to the drama. While I was dealing with being screwed over, I guess in some way this person had had enough.

Now like I said before, I've dealt with the consequences, and it's only got a semi-grip on my mind, but in some ways, this incident has also helped me. Without it, I would not be where I am today. I wouldn't be on the way to making my life what it should be. I wouldn't have made some of the friends I have now, and even though some of them are gone, they still meant a lot to me at the time. They helped me through some really hard stuff. I just wish they weren't part of the sacrifice I had to make to become a better person.

Anywho, I've gotten my problems off my chest, I'm hoping this was all I needed to finally let go.
Guess we'll just have to wait and see.

No comments:

Post a Comment