I've started to notice how easily I turn to escape when I reach a problem. I look up ways to run away from whatever is bothering me, or whatever I don't like, instead of staying, and dealing with the issue.
Fighting with roommates has me looking for apartments at 1am, at the beginning of the month, when I have no money. Why can't I just stay and fight? This is the only option I have right now. Why throw it away?
I honestly don't understand why I do things like this. I run. I push. I fight, when I shouldn't. Maybe it's time I go back to counseling. Who knows. It might help me figure my life out, since apparently I can't do that alone.